Today I’d love to share with you my emotional healing journey, please note that this is the very brief overview because there is just SO much that God has done that I’m compiling it all to eventually release in a couple of books!
In February 2017 God invited me upon a deep inner healing journey and a huge part of that was dealing with the emotions that I had struggled with my whole life. Over the next few months God gradually unpacked grief, rage, hurt, pain, despair, fear, doubts, disappointments and so much more. Many times it felt like my heart would explode with the pain. I thought my mind would melt from the memories of despair combined with the emotion of hopelessness. I felt like my spirit was completely crushed beneath the weight of all I had endured and it was weak and failing me fast.
But praise God for He sustained me!
My heart full of pain was replaced with a heart full of grace and love.
My mind overwhelmed with despair has been renewed with hope and blessed assurance.
My ocean of tears filled with bitterness and great grief were replaced with tears of redemption!
My weak spirit is now steadfast and strong!
It was a journey where I needed to continuously cry out: “not my will but Yours my Lord!”.
God has taken me on a journey of embracing the fact that I‘m emotional and a couple of things that really helped were:
Firstly studying the life of Jesus and recognising the many INTENSE emotions He dealt with whilst here on earth and coming to the revelation that His emotions were centred in God.
Secondly studying James Goll who is a prophetically gifted man, he explains that prophetic people are extra-sensitive so that they can be receptive to the gentle nudging of the Holy Spirit. Sensitivity enables us to quickly perceive things in the spirit realm. I gained a great comfort from knowing that God wants people with sensitive soft hearts.
I’ve noticed that when we prophecy we feel the pain of others so that we can convey the heart of God. We can feel God’s pain or love or compassion for those we are speaking to so that we can engage appropriately. As emotional people we can be highly sensitive to the Holy Spirit which is a wonderful thing!
As God has patiently and gently taken me upon this journey I’ve seen a shift where I can now fully embrace my sensitive and emotional nature and allow God to use it for His great glory.
I wanted to share my story because I believe that God can heal every area of people’s lives – spiritually, physically, mentally and emotionally. God can make us WHOLE!
Larry Sparks, in his book “Ask For The Rain: Receiving Your Inheritance Of Revival & Outpouring”, explains it like this: “It’s not about who we are; it’s about Who He is in us and through us. If God is really inside of us, then everywhere we walk, we carry the rule, reign and administration of the Kingdom of Heaven.”
For God to do a work through us He needs to remove the rubbish and fill us to overflow with Him and His glorious presence, it is then that we will see as it is in Heaven unfold. It is a painful process but one that produces such freedom!
I felt prompted to declare over 2019 the following which has been inspired from Isaiah 61:
Jesus comforts and heals the wounds of the brokenhearted, He grants joy to ALL those who mourn.
He proclaims release from confinement and condemnation.
Jesus’s great sacrifice has freed us from every sin that would entangle and entrap us.
For those who are disheartened, Jesus grants the garment of praise.
Grasp hold of Jesus’ righteousness that makes you magnificently strong and full of integrity.
Jesus can rebuild that which seems destroyed and restore that which seems lost.
No longer will shame shadow you or humiliation be your name for a double portion will be restored to you and an everlasting joy bestowed upon you.
For our Lord God loves justice and hates robbery.
When others see our prosperity, they will know and acknowledge that we are God’s dearly loved and highly prized children.
Let us REJOICE greatly in the Lord, let our souls exult Him and His wonderful ways.
He clothes us in garments of salvation; covers us with the robe of righteousness; places a crown upon each of our heads; and adorns us with His goodness.
Just as the earth springs forth that which is sown into it, let us spring forth with righteousness and praise because we have the Word of God sown into our hearts producing a great harvest!
Praying 2019 unfolds with much joy. Many blessings, Keona