Mary sat down and let the tears fall. She watched as Jesus slept and wondered if she should join him. The tiredness felt heavy today, she tried to pray but failed to find the words. For over 3 years she’d tried to settle into the unfamiliar place, to learn a new language and accept the weird smells around her but today it was all too much. Mary wept for her homeland and her family. The nausea from the past few days lingered and Mary wondered why. Giving into her feelings of desperation Mary laid down next to Jesus and prayed for sleep to come, maybe the world wouldn’t feel so big and overwhelming with a clear head.
Joseph came home early sensing that today Mary would be struggling, it was her Mother’s birthday and Joseph knew that Mary’s mind would be drawn to the fact that she was missing out on another family celebration. There had been many tears that they had missed celebrating Jesus’ 3rd birthday with family and friends, they had held a tiny celebration, but it had held an undercurrent of much sorrow.
Joseph saw Jesus stir and smiled, he raced over and picked him up. Jesus’ excited squeals woke Mary and Joseph apologised ‘so sorry for waking you’
Mary struggled to rise ‘oh Joseph sorry I wasn’t feeling well’
‘that’s ok, why don’t you keep resting and I’ll take Jesus for a quick walk before dinner. There are some new camels to look at and you know how much He adores the strange beautiful creatures.’
Mary smiled ‘I’m sure He’d love to do anything with you but He’d be especially excited about camels.’
Joseph kisses Mary’s forehead as she laid back down ‘you look very pale, are you still nauseous?’
Mary closed her eyes and nodded as fresh tears started to flow.
Joseph bent down and hugged her as she cried, Jesus rushed in and nuzzled into Mary’s neck causing her heart to lift. She smiled and said ‘now you boys go have some fun.’
Joseph gave her a big squeeze and smiled ‘we won’t be long, you sure you’re ok?’
Mary nodded and tried not to sob ‘I’m ok, now go.’
Joseph took a moment to closely examine Mary’s face and then smiled and nodded ‘back soon’
‘Ok’ Mary kissed Jesus’ cheek and smiled as He ran after Joseph.
Mary laid back down as her stomach churned, she did feel a bit better but the nausea lingered, it just didn’t make sense or did it? Mary hadn’t experienced sickness with Jesus but she’d heard many other women did feel sick when first pregnant, could that be what was wrong? It would explain why she was feeling so emotional, Mary remembered that Elizabeth had been extremely tired for the first few weeks of her pregnancy and nauseated all day. Mary sat up. She wasn’t sure if she should be excited or terrified. She cried out ‘God thank You for this gift of new life. I’m terrified though. I long to be with family and friends who can support me through this. How can I possibly cope with 2 young children on my own?’ Fresh tears fell as Mary thought of her family, the nausea increased as her homesick heart cried out to God. Somewhere in her praying and crying Mary must have fallen into an exhausted sleep because she awoke to Joseph and Jesus making dinner. Mary rolled over and tried not to breathe in the smell of the fish they cooked over the simmering coals. Joseph saw her stir and rushed over, ‘you ok?’. Mary sat up and nodded ‘yes but I might be pregnant’ Joseph smiled, ‘well that’s exciting news!’ Mary sobbed ‘oh how I wish we could go home’ Joseph hugged her ‘I know’. Mary clung to Joseph and cried. Jesus crawled into her lap and wiped her tears with his fingers ‘Eema’ Mary smiled, how she cherished the title of mother and how fortunate that another little mouth will soon utter those words. She hugged her boys and got up ‘let me help with dinner’.
After dinner Mary felt better and enjoyed listening to Joseph tell the story of David defeating Goliath, it was Jesus’ favourite and often requested after dinner story. Mary smiled as she watched her boys laugh and try to recreate the scenes. She wondered what the new child inside her would look like and stroked her stomach.
As Joseph and Mary laid down that night to sleep a sense of peace fell upon them both and they fell into a deep sleep. An angel of the Lord appeared to Joseph in a dream and said: ‘Get up! Take Mary and Jesus with you back to the land of Israel for those who were trying to kill the child have died.’ (Matthew 2:19-20).
Joseph awoke with a start and saw that the sun was just starting to rise. He quickly arose and prayed ‘Oh Lord how I praise You and thank You for this momentous day. How truly wonderful it will be to see the faces of our loved ones again, how wonderful it will be to see the rolling hills I love so much, how truly astounding it will be for Jesus to grow up among those who will love and protect Him.’. Joseph spent more time praising God as he waited for Mary and Jesus to awake, he could barely contain his excitement and knew that Mary would share his great joy. Mary must have sensed his need to talk to her for she awoke and looked into his eyes ‘is everything ok?’ she quickly sat up ‘oh Mary it is a wonderful day! An angel visited me last night and said we can return home, oh did you hear me Mary we’re going home!’ Mary quickly jumped up and hugged him tightly with tears of joy streaming down her face ‘Oh Joseph that is such wonderful news! When are we leaving?’
Joseph laughed, ‘Well as soon as we can get organised.’
Mary replied: ‘breakfast first and then we pack.’ Mary and Joseph quickly set to the tasks of the day and Jesus soon joined in the joyful mood and toddled around their feet with squeals of delight. Joseph went and made enquiries with the local merchants about the next caravan leaving for Israel. The merchants were helpful and quick to advise Joseph as he had always provided quality products and shown great integrity. Joseph smiled when he heard the news that a caravan was planning to leave in 2 days, how perfectly timed that would be. The next days flew by in a frantic excited rush and before they knew it Joseph, Mary and Jesus were on their way home. The excitement helped them persevere when the days were long and hard. Thankfully Mary’s sickness had abated as soon as they left the outskirts of town and she was able to enjoy the scenery as it passed by.
The days had taken their toll but finally they were on the outskirts of Judea, tomorrow they would be there but for tonight they simply had to rest. As Joseph fell into a deep sleep an angel of the Lord appeared to him again ‘Joseph do not go to Judea for Archelaus rules.’ (Matthew 2:22).
He awoke with his heart racing, Mary sensed his alert and quickly sat up ‘what is it?’
Joseph took a deep breath: ‘I had another dream, we cannot go into Judea for Archelaus rules.’ Mary’s heart froze at the mention of that name, she had heard that Herod’s son was even more vile and cruel than he had been. They discussed options as the sun rose. Joseph thanked the caravan leader and explained that they would visit family close by, waving them off and wishing them a safe journey. It wasn’t a complete lie as they could visit a cousin or two nearby and then Joseph felt they could make their way to Nazareth.
“So he settled his family in the village of Nazareth, fulfilling the prophecy that he would be known as the “Branch.” (or Nazarene).” Matthew 2:23 The Passion Translation (TPT)